July 26, 2004

Vacations

My wife's family is going on vacation in a few weeks. She has informed me that she wants me to come along. In previous years, I was not welcome. My wife wants me there this year because she says that her family doesn't pick on her nearly as much when I'm around.

My wife has made it clear that she doesn't really want to spend her vaction with me, but she just wants me there to protect her. She has made it very clear that wanting me at this vacation does not indicate any kind of affection for me what so ever.

There are many times when I become upset with my wife because she is dis-honest with me, but I think this is one of those times where maybe she could have been a little mis-leading.

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July 10, 2004

Unfair rage

This evening, I discovered that my wife had left several cigarette lighters well within reach of my daughter on one of the counters in the Laundry room. I walked in the laundry room and found that my two-year old daughter had climbed up on the counter and was playing with the lighters.

I yelled at her and told her that she was not allowed to play with them, and I smacked her bottom. She immediately ran upstairs to her mother.

Moments later my wife came downstairs and asked me why I smacked our daughter. I started to tell her what had happened, but then was stopped when my wife hit me. I told her not to hit me, so she hit me again as hard as she could.

Granted, she can't hit that hard. But its makes me angry anyway because its an example of unfair rage. She can blow her top and go out of controll whenever she wants, and that's fine. But if I loose control just once, that's it for me.

It is just another example of how I've become sucked up into playing some fantasy game originated from her head. A game whose first rule is that nobody ever wins but her. The second rule is that she isn't allowed to enjoy winning.

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July 08, 2004

Tatoos

My wife had decided that she needs to get more tatoos on her body. I thnk she just isn't willing to believe that she is a beautiful person as is.

She decided earlier in the week that she absolutely has to have these tatoos right away. She's told me that if I don't find money for her to get them, then she's going to use our grocery money instead. She is completely un-able to see how things like these hurt us whenever she does them.

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