October 17, 2006

Rotten Day

Wife had a Doctor's appointment today. We made arrangements for our daughter to spend the full day at school today instead of a half-day, and I drove my wife to the doctor's office.

When we got home, we started talking about stuff. Naturallly, it turned into a heated discussion, but then things calmed down. The topic was how I never do anything for her. I tried to explain to her that I do things all the time for her, and it just seems like no matter what I do, I never get any points for it. Its like everything that I do for her is meaningless because I'm "supposed" to do it. Anything I don't do makes me a bad guy.

Well, anyway.. in the discussion, I said something really smart-assed. It was a dumb thing to do, but I was trying to make a point. We were talking about her getting out of the house and how she never wants to do it. She told me she didn't know where she would work because she doesn't know what she wants to do. I said "You're 32 years old and you don't know what you want to be when you grow up".

I know, it was stupid. But nowhere near as bad as some of the things she had said to me (I know, that's know excuse). But what happened next took me completely by surprise. She grabed me and started trying to hit me. I put up my hand to block and she grabed it and bit my thumb really hard. I was in a lot of pain. And as she was biting down on my thumb she started hitting me in the testicles. When she was done, I was doubled over in pain, and she was sitting there like nothing ever happpened.

I went upstairs and bawled like a little kid. I couldn't help myself. I haven't cried like that since my mother died. It wasn't the pain from the physical damage. It was the realization of where I am in my life. The choices that I made for myself and the decision to care for this person has left me trapped in a place that I don't want to be in anymore, but can't escape.

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October 09, 2006

I'm a bad waiter.

My day started out fairly simple. I got up, and got my daughter ready for school. As I was getting my daughter ready, my wife informed me that she wasn't feeling well, and that I had to stay home because she refused to go get my daughter from school. I stayed home, and sure enough, my wife stayed in bed the whole day.

When it was time to get my daughter from school, I offered to get some food for my wife. I picked up exactly what she asked for. When I got home and gave it to her she threw it on the ground and started screaming at me. Even though she didn't ask for it, I was supposed to know that she wanted french fries with her food.

I went upstairs and worked for a while. Eventually, I went out and cut the grass. When I got in I was hot and sweaty, and asked my wife if she wanted to go out somewhere and have some fun after I took a shower. She agreed.

When I got done with the shower, I went downstairs and (seeing my wife still in a bathrobe) asked her if she was ready to go. She told me that she wanted me to take my daughter out somewhere to eat, and then bring food back for her. I was sick and tired of running around town for her, so I told her that I wasn't going to do that.

My wife quickly twisted the entire thing into "you promised your daughter ice cream" (I didn't, by the way). If I didn't take my daughter out for ice cream, then I was a bad father, and if I didn't bring food back for my wife, then I was a bad husband.

My daughter then started throwing a massive temper tantrum. She was throwing things around on the floor, breaking things, dumping food out of its containers, etc.. I warned my daughter to stop and gave her three chances before time-out. My daughter didn't stop, she just kept on going. So, I told my daughter to go to time-out.

Instead my daughter ran straight over to my wife. I asked my wife "are you going to support me?" She replied "No, you don't ever do anything for me, so why should I?"

So, there you have it. I suck as a waiter, I suck as a father, and I suck as a husband. At least she won't have to put up with me as much. I'll be putting in 10 hour days for the rest of the week to make up for the time I missed when I stayed home for her today.

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